Saturday, May 23, 2009


Iam popular among the kids of my relatives because i keep them entertained and really step down to their level. My favourite one's "Nithish", my cousin brother's son who is very close to me and iam a kind of a hero to him. Well that's history. I had to leave my native for my higher studies and now "Rithanya" Nithish's younger sister doesnt even recognise me :-(

Nithish and me
That was untill this summer.Last week i was to my cousin's place. Both Nithish and Rithanya were there as they were on summer vacation too. Initially Rithu(short form of rithanya) was very shy and didnt even answer my questions. But soon when Nithish and me started playing, rithu had to join us as we were her only available playmates. This was the icebreaker between me and rithu! She slowly started talking to me and soon was under my spell. we first played hide and seek, monkey and ball, then some pc games followed by drawing mushtaches to their photos in ms-paint,then i showed them some magic tricks (really kiddish ones like where u cut your thumb into two parts etc...), then an origami session followed by launching the rockets and freeing the paper bats we made during the origami session and finally a shuttle cock game on the terrace. by the time i left, rithanya had become as close and as intimate to me as nithish.

This Summer
Its almost a two-hour journey home from my cousin's. I was lost in thoughts. How Blank and inert this world has changed me. I was faaaaaaaaar away from my original self lately. "Lately" is an understatement. Its somewhen from between the day i joined college(3 years ago) and (/till) yesterday. The person who was with these kids today is the REAL "Me". "I" got lost somewhere in this busy grown up's world. i dont mean that the real me is a kid. What I mean is the enthusiasm in whatever i do and my creativity; though i've been harnessing my creativity in my college life(for some adolescentish reasons included;) ) it is in no way comparable to how i felt using it for those kids.

In the dull, monotonous lifestyle of college i've lost my originality. This originality is compatible in the grownup's world but for no reason i've abandoned it, though not intentionally or suddenly. It was rather gradual and out of my knowledge. There is no specific reason for this abandonment. This's just what happens to everyone out there. Its just how we humans transform. From fully enthusiastic self aware individuals to bleached, money making robots; conrol freaks! As the saying goes

"In the process of searching for the answer, we loose hold of the question!"

May be i'll even need more reincarnations of my originality in many a future summer vacations to keep the REAL "me" alive!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

First thing i want to say is "use dark colours" for blog themes so that we can conserve precious power. Speaking of power, power is one of the most sought after things in the world. What is power? We humans (with a big 150 pound brain capable of complicating simple things)mess things up and then try to simplify it. But the resulting solution is not simpler than it was initially. Thus we entwine ourselves in this deep Sh!t; this entangled complex bundle of strings which was once solvable but due to ignorance and negligance; has piled up to become too complex that even the sharpest minds together are finding it hard to arrive at even a short term remedy. Name it: Global warming, currency, economic inequality, religious disputes.....
coming back to my question, what is power? Is it gaining the upper hand in this man made entwinement? Is it being in a postion to control a person /s, state, country?
What binds other elements to our power? The manmade laws, ethics or the more primitive "fear"?
Whatever we think are binding us to power, they are all just illusions. What binds a soldier to his superiors? why should he obey their commands?
There is nothing blocking him to act on his own free will!!
Real power is something unavoidable, uncheatable, supreme. The only real power in this world is the control which our mother nature has on us. That is real power. In whatever way we try to conquer nature, we fail. It reminds us of the supremecy of nature's power. There are more Bermuda triangles than there are area 51's. There are more natural disasters than there are wars. Overall, nature is holding the sceptor. And we should realize this, so that we can live in balance. Balance is essential for survival, for sustainability, for happiness.